Á Rough Canvas (Nature of Desire, #6) ä Download by à Joey W. Hill Wow I don t even know where to start with this book I don t think I could ever come up with words to do this book justiceIf I could, I d be a writer.
It s just that good So should I try to be serious It dawned on me while reading this at some pointNow let s be clear so you re not confusedYeah this book really had me all tore up in about a million different ways My emotions were running as high as my libido This was a first for me where if you d taken away the sex, the book would still have been good Ok, if you think I m suggesting you take out the sex.
WellI m just merely pointing out the fact there is a whole lotto the story than the nookie Now if you were to take everything out but the sex, you would still be left with a good read D Although I would suggest in investing in spare batteries This book seriously has it ALL Excellent writing I was blown away by the quality Complex characters Hot Men Even hotter sex Mystery IntrigueAs two added bonuses it has had some authentic Southern characters and my own personal top fantasy All I can say is you should read Rough Canvas You re missing out if don t My final thoughts Rough Canvas is one of the best books I ve ever read and it s also my first M M read I am going to try my best to make justice to this AH MAZING book with my review This is the story of Marcus Thomas They had been together in the past but they took different paths about a year ago.
Marcus is the Dom but he is also my favourite character in the book You think he is strong, he knows how to control every situation but he is NOT He s got a heart too and you will end up loving him He is also a smart ass and I have bookmarked most of the book with his sentences What you want is for me to bend you over this fence and fuck you hard, fill you where you ve been empty for far too longThomas is the farm sweet boy He loves Marcus but he also loves his family so he is trying to keep them happy hiding his feelings It doesn t always get to be about what you want Life sometimes is making the best of what you re given May contain spoilers Elaine, Thomas mother, does not accept Thomas sexuality and she wants Thomas to marry a woman, Daralyn Oh, for Christ s sake Nothing is going to make your boy straight, Elaine I didn t drag him into anything But you re absolutely right This is a battle for his soul, and while you may think I m Lucifer, you sure as hell aren t God This isn t about you or me It s about the gift that defines his soulthan you or I will ever hope to do If he doesn t have that for himself, neither of us will have anything I need to say that I loved the way Marcus always tried to convince Elaine about how amazing her son was He got so passionate about Thomas and he always protected the artist in Thomas.
Marcus offers Thomas a way to continue his art career and help his family But the deal is Thomas has to spend a week with him in the Berkshires One week when you ll try to get me back in your bed Oh, there won t be any trying on that one, Thomas We both know that s not what s in question You ll be in my bed Thomas obviously accepts Marcus deal If you only had one week to have something you always wanted that you could never have again, would you take it Yes He would Even knowing that walking away from it at the end of the week wasthan he could bear Thomas has to fight his demons because in my opinion he doesn t even accepts himself so there is no way he is gonna make his family accept him for who he is, an extraordinary person Fuck you You do that well enough on your goddamned own Run Run from it all you want Go home to your little farm and pretend there are all these noble reasons to be there rather than the truth, which is you re a coward Afraid to face who you are and what you want It s a hard book, specially chapters 8 9 as Baba told me, I am not going to deny it, but it was also very FUNNY How do you go about it with your little fianc e your mother wants to chain you to You leave her out of it Your mother I will gladly leave out of any discussion involving sex However, with respect to this girl have you made out How did you get it up Who would you fantasize about to make her think it was all about her You arrogant son of a That s what I thought If I wanted to be psychoanalized every time I made a nasty comment, I d go straight and find myself a girl Remember, shampoo followed by conditioner Use the ones in the black bottles God, I forget sometimes how gay you are As the week goes by their feelings getandintense No matter what happens, Marcus With Daralyn, with any of it, you re the only man I want Now or forever The only man I ll ever let inside me again Then give me your pain Master I can bear it as long as I know your lips will touch every mark when you re done, signing it as your work Marcus is always proving his love for Thomas, in every single way, even if Thomas is not ready to fight the whole world to protect their love.
I loved when they met Cathy Walter, God, I loved Cathy Does your family live in the area, Mr Just Marcus will do, ma am My family s in this room When you know you re worth loving, you can be a little imperfect And what about Julie Ramirez What a great character I keep hoping you ll come up to my place and just stand next to my bed naked and hold the vibrator Now if you and Thomas did it hmmm like Thomas would hold me on his lap he d be naked too, of course, and you d do the vibrator thing, and it would be like a real fantasy I don t blame you Julie, I ve been dreaming the same since I started the book I loved when Julie and Marcus were talking about Thomas and Marcus told her there was no way in hell he was going to give up on them Aretha Franklin s Ain t no Wayopening line was helping Ain t no way for me to love you If you won t let me Ain t no way for me to give you all you need If you won t let me give all of me I loved Marcus sooo much, I know I have already said that but I can t help it, he is a perfect hero Years from now, when you ve done what you think they wanted you to do and you re coming home every night to sit in your recliner with your beer gut and your passive aggression drowning in cable, you ll be hating that girl you married The family you thought you loved And you still won t be enough, because what they want is for you to be truly happy BEING SOMEONE YOU WERE FUCKING NEVER MEANT TO BE And Thomas finally told Marcus about his feelings, aloud I love you, Master Love you Come for me Please Love you God, finally accepting it was as bad as dyingAccepting what people are, what they can t change and loving them with every part of yourself anyway That s what love is about As their story comes to an end we get to knowabout Marcus life and that was a hard part, I loved himif possible after knowing about his past If you stop loving someone, it s easier to forget themIt s hard, especially for a Dom, to realize that to get what you really want you have to give up control completely, just hoping to hell that Fate doesn t kick your balls into the back of your throatimage error When His Father Dies, Thomas Is Forced To Abandon A Burgeoning Art Career In New York As Difficult As It Was To Give Up His Lifelong Dream, It S Nothing Next To Walking Away From The Man He Loves Marcus Taught Him To Embrace Who He Is, A Sexual Submissive Who Responds To The Touch Of Only One Master But Why Would The Sophisticated Marcus Need Some Farm Kid From The South Then Marcus Shows Up And Offers Him A Way To Continue His Art Career And Help His Family There S Only One Hitch He Asks Thomas To Spend A Week With Him In The Berkshires Thomas Knows He Should Refuse But He S Never Been Able To Say No To His Master Rough CanvasWhat therefore God hath joined together,let no one put asunderIt was easy when I thought it was sinful,something to do with the flesh.
But what I m seeing isthan that.
It s love,and love isn t a sin.
So how can God be so cruel as to give that feeling to two men or two women if it s a sin Thomas is working in his family s hardware store in a part of rural North Carolina.
It s of course very far away from New York City where he,a God gifted rising artist had resided for the last few years.
But he had to come back when twin calamities struck his family First when his father died and second when his younger brother Rory had a tractor accident and thus ended up in a wheelchair.
So leaden with responsibilities and guilt,he came home and took over as the head of the family.
But tearing him apart is the truth that when he left New York,he also left the other half of him.
His best friend,his lover,his Master,his lifeMarcus Aurelius.
Marcus,hard muscled six foot of pure temptation,never opens himself to any kind of vulnerability.
He owns galleries in NY and has a special talent of ferreting out true talent which obviously made him so rich.
The first time he saw Thomas,he was captivated not only by the artist s talent but also by the artist himself.
And from the first time he claimed Thomas,he had known Thomas was his.
But he lost him.
He lost Thomas to fate,when Thomas left New York and him.
But now,he wants him back.
So as the first step,he offers Thomas the deal that he can paint while remaining in North Carolina and Marcus will take care of selling his paintings in NY.
But Thomas had also lost his muse when he left Marcus.
For him,Marcus was everything.
But he couldn t have him.
His family,especially his mother,a strict Catholic, can never accept their relationshipHe was the prince of every fairy tale that had ever been writtenNot willing to give up,Marcus asks Thomas for one week.
One week with him Do Thomas and Marcus finally realize that they can never live without each other Do they accept their love for each other and realize that it is far greater than any religion Do they finally surrender their souls to each other Well you ll have to read the book to find out.
And readers I vow when Marcus will lay his heart bare,all of your hearts will break to Thomas s mom When he was living with me,there was one nightI couldn t sleep.
I got some wine,came back and leaned against the bedroom door.
There he was,asleep,the moonlight on every inch of him Those incredibly talented fingers were on my pillow.
He did that whenever I got up at night,to know when I came back.
I looked at him and I couldn t speak,couldn t swallow.
Couldn t even move He made a fist,pressed it against his chest I wanted everything for him.
I wanted to see him achieve every dream,embrace every desire.
I wanted to protect him from anyone who would cause him harm or a moment s pain,tear them apart with my bare hands.
Never let him out of my sight even as I wanted him to stretch out his wings as far as they could go and soar.
And at the bottom,top and middle of it all,I just wanted to stand there,just that way forever.
Not disturb him.
Just look at him and love him.
Do nothing but simply love him for everything he is,a creation too perfect to be anything but God s gift to the rest of us I am declaring and I do not care what anyone says, that I am in love with these two amazing men Please pardon me while I have a moment HOLY SHIT THIS BOOK IS EXQUISITE Joey W Hill, new to me author, writes like an artist This book felt like I closed my eyes and was listening to a masterpiece compositionmusic that rolled over me, harshly grabbed me and pulled me under as I was drowning, and then gently brought me back up for air The emotions in this book were felt so acutely in my heart, in my gut, in my fingertips, in myummmmwell, you knowThe first half of the book I felt so much loss and pain and protectiveness towards Thomas And because of it, I became obsessed with how Marcus loved him and took care of him But, very abruptly, not subtle at all, I found myself fiercely aligned with Marcuseven to the point of getting angry at times with Thomas for hurting him The most intense and ridiculously well written scenes the BDSM club, the hospital, every interaction between Marcus and Thomas mom continue to haunt me And I loved the comic relief that the character of Julie brought to the book I m obsessed with her.
The book has BDSM in it, but not in a way that is in your face I felt BDSM was used as a way to shine light into who our characters are in their core and why For those who are not fans of BDSM, don t let that push you away from this book at allyou ll be missing out on a BEAUTIFUL love story.
READ THIS BOOK This is one of the best books I have read this year The quality of the writing and the depth of emotion got me by surprise, I really didn t expect it to be this good But WOW If I had to describe this book with one word, it would be EMOTIONIt s there All the time In every sentence, in every scene When they are together When they are apart Even with other characters Just simply amazing I was hooked just with that first chapter Thomas is dealing with his melancholy and memories of the one man he can t ever forget, and that man, Marcus, has just walked in his store offering a business deal One week with Marcus doing a big order of paintings After some reluctance, he accepts and their affair coininues for that week alone I won t gointo the story, if any of you decide to read it, it should be new and amazing and unexpected I ll just say Marcus and Thomas had the most amazing chemistry, it was full of passion and love , and so beautiful it shocked me because it doesn t happen very often that you can FEEL their love through the pages In here, you can feel it all the freaking time While reading the book, half of the time I wanted to cry and I did a couple of times , the other half was fanning myself for all the hot sex scenes and clutching my stomach when it was too emotionally intense There were some very sweet times, and I don t know why but I wanted to cry at those too It s just that you know that they are going to go their own way once he finishes the paintings, so all the stuff they go through makes you sad Best scenes when Thomas first sees Marcus in the store Marcus in the car after their first meeting their picnic, oh that was beautiful Thomas takes care of Marcus after the beating Thomas making the big painting that represents Marcus and him this one isn t my best, it was actually the most horrible scene in the book, but I have to put it here because it made me cry like a baby view spoiler Thomas s stupid mother ruining that painting, that was just so fucking sad to read Heartbreaking hide spoiler I tried not to spoil this book for anyone, but sorry if I did My review consist of my opinion and feelings on this book NOT the story linethat s what the book is for and also most of the awesome reviews featured on GR DWhere do I begin with my feeling and thoughts on this book.
this story that pushed me out of a safe place Protecting myself from words written in books that can tear my heart, instill feelings within me for characters that may seem fiction to others, but oh so real to me A book that can force tearstears from eyes unwilling to shed.
A story that showed me love that strips you down till you re vulnerable, love that holds the power to expose you to unbearable pain A love you re willing to beg for, even when it hurts This is Marcus and Thomas loveThat s when I decided not to be afraid of anything Then you came and I remembered true fear is knowing you have something you can t bear losingI don t think, even with my feeble attempts, that I could express the depth and beauty of Marcus and Thomas story Their beautiful story that s so dark, but yet filled with light Together these two beautiful men were beyond intense, overwhelming in their passion and complete in their need for each other It was amazing when they were together And heartbreaking when I felt their pain and suffering, when torn apartI don t understand what it s like to lose someone when I m not expecting it Have my heart torn from me and be told it s something I just have to accept itAt times I didn t think I could handle the intensity of Marcus and Thomas intimacy, or the depths they took it too, if I wasn t so prepared and eased in to it by the author s talented words Every word, every harsh scene added in was a necessity that built this story Even when I m against having such a strong dominant and a submissive in stories personal choice , I felt the importance of it being featured here between Marcus and Thomas The role they played is a major one in helping them cope and survive the life their given and the past they ve endured But at the same time I didn t feel these roles were over used or forced on us readers There was still a lightness to their relationship when it was just Marcus and Thomas Then when it changed to Master and slave I understand the need for it, Thomas need to submit to Marcus as part of his nature, the person he truly is, even when he himself held backSsshhSee yourself the way I see you Feel the way my hands touch you, think about the way I look at you I see all of you, Thomas You think I don t, but I do You re mine Just let go and see itFor Marcus the importance of being the Master was built from past experiences that pushed him to stay in control, when this was previously not an option when fighting for his survival But even with this need, Marcus had to submit to Thomas, give his all, expose his darkest secrets, to truly commit to their relationshipMarcus needed it, needed it like air, needed some outlet for the emotion that clogged in his throat and made his heart want to explode every time he touched ThomasParabelle Hold On For Me If you just stop to wind me up I ll race on my wayAnd I will run as fast as I can Just to see you safeJust to see you open your eyes And see how far you could goIf you just hold on for meTime will overcome it always does but now Am I the only one who sees the sad die youngAnd I will run as fast as I can Just to see you safeJust to see you open your eyes And see how far you could goIf you just hold on for me.
From Thomas to Marcus when he needed him.
Marcus and Thomas story will stay with me for years to come Its perfect, amazing and beyond any ordinary love story A special thanks to Baba, for your support while reading this awesome book xx You re mine, pet Mine to protect and love Same goes I m yours, Master I have heard so much about this book and I always put it aside for one fine day, but that day came early because I was molested by several GR friends to finally read it DI never read the blurb, but I read lots of reviews of my GR friends and all of them were high rated mostly 5 stars.
The reason I was afraid to read it was one character Thomas because I was afraid he would remind me of one other character which I seriously didn t like and annoyed me.
You know that pressure when you know you have to read something and immediately backs you of the book well I think that was the reason why I had a rocky start with it I seriously thought about not finishing it, but I decided to take a break and catch up later Honestly I am glad I didn t give up.
At first I did like it, especially when I read Marcus POV, but later it all went down for me The reason it all went down for me were the club scenes Don t get me wrong, I was not disturbed or anything by reading it, not even happy or aroused or some other emotion, I was simply indifferent and actually didn t have the joy of turning and reading next pages Maybe that sounds a little weird but that was how I really felt.
Everything except that part I really enjoyed, the rest of the book I really loved.
I thought I would love Marcus POVbut it turned up that the only reason I finished this book was actually Thomas the character I was dreading to read about Funny, I know DI won t write about the story because there are dozens of reviews that will make you read the book as soon as possible, so I will only write how I felt about it in the end.
The whole idea of the story was really excellent, I think that is one of the most beautiful love stories I ever read I always love to read about that struggle with feelings, with decisions you make, with fears of your actions and in this story you have it on basicly every page.
The writing was simply amazing I think that I never read so many breathtaking sentences in one book ever I was literally mesmerized how beautiful it was written.
But through the first half of the book I had some issues At first I didn t like Thomas that much, then I loved Marcus, then I loved Marcus with his POV, then I hated Marcus in Thomas POV, then I loved Thomas, then I hated Marcus in his POV etc etc etc.
It was pretty frustrated for me to read it, but then at the second half of the book it all changed I believe the moment where it all changed for me was the moment when Thomas beat those assholes for hurting Marcus So here is what I think why was that moment essential for me to really start devouring the book because I have mental issues and have to read about ALPHA gays, and even though Thomas was a submissive I kinda couldn t help but feel that deep down he has that beautiful, little, possessive, alpha feature even if it shows up only when protecting Marcus.
When it comes to characters I loved them and hated them, it really depended upon the chapter I loved Thomas but hated his constant analyzing I loved how he saw the things around him, and the things he valued When it comes to Marcus I hated how he didn t want to say anything about him And I usually hate that in any book But I loved how he surrendered to Thomas in the end, and with him being a dom, made itbeautiful.
So when it comes to the story I would have rated it 4 stars, but in the end when I reread some of the quotes I highlighted I will give it a 5 star just because the writing was seriously amazing.
The quotes that I loved the most were this I ve never gotten in, so how the hell can I get out Thomas snarled You want me to be your family You let family in Knowing they ll hurt you, you do it anyway, because that s what love is You let them in to hurt you, love you Leave you But what I ve realized is that you re the true problem What you feel you deserve, the faith you have in us The question isn t do I belong in this world of yours, but do you want me to belong in it That s when I decided not to be afraid of anything Then you came and I remembered that true fear is knowing you have something you can t bear losing You understand the darkness without ever having been in it You see the world as it is, all its misery and pain, all the beauty that somehow rises above it, and you accept all of it You accept me So there Blacky and Shelly B, I told you not to be afraid of my review D

This is an excellent read, please don t be like me and wait to discover the awe inspiring Author that is Joey W Hill I started reading this book and was immediately drawn into the pages by the excellent writing of JWH, her prose flows beautifully, painting a vivid picture, immersing you into the book, grabbing tight and not letting go Even when you have read the very last word and closed your Kindle, these characters are still with you.
Initially, I thought this would be a BDSM novel that revolves around the club scene and although we do have a glimpse of this, in the sexually intense scenes in chapter 8 and 9 be warned, not for the feint hearted this book is so muchthan that.
This is the the story of Marcus, Master and Gallery Owner and Thomas, Slave and Aspiring Artist.
In brief, Thomas leaves New York, his life with Marcus and his life s passion of becoming an acclaimed artist behind, to return home to North Carolina when his Father falls ill His Father dies then his brother has an accident with a tractor and is left crippled and in a wheelchair This leaves Thomas no other alternative As the eldest brother he is honour bound by his sense of duty and responsibility to those he loves to stay home and endure his new role as the Head of the family, taking control and running the Hardware Store, trying to live up to their expectations, not wanting to disappoint.
Without Marcus his Master, Thomas is a lost soul, existing rather than living, conforming, doing what is deemed to be right by his family and society.
but inside Thomas is drowning in his misery for what he really wants and needs His submissive nature is taken advantage of by his bible thumping, religious, bigoted Mother and his bitter and broken Brother, who wallows in his own self pity These two seriously had me considering anger management classes I was so cross 12 months later Marcus walks into the store.
And onto the page of my Kindlea vision of beauty, perfect in every way, he demands attention with a look alone, the culture and elegance of a GQ model and an arrogant confidence of knowing he gets what he wants The epitome of a dominant, oozing sexuality from every pore and what he wants isThomas At this point a very sexy Mr Gandy popped into my head.
Fan Mister Cold shower OK, I m good Thomas is in awe of Marcus still drooling This modest farm boy who is quite and shy and ill at ease with strangers, puts his Master on a pedestal to be worshipped, happy to be a slave at his perfect feet He wants to be consumed by him, Marcus completes him, he wants nothingthan to serve him.
desperate to obey his Master s will.
his sense of duty to the family that depends on him alone stops him from realising his own passions and dreams of becoming an accomplished artist in his own right, holding onto his heart, trying to protect himself from the pain and the deep ache inside he has had since leaving New York Knowing if he lets down his guard, he will be lost to all that is.
Marcus Marcus needs Thomas, just as much as Thomas needs Marcus Thomas s artistic talent leaves him breathless, his survival is dependent on Thomashe needs him, loves him, wants him in his life But, succumbing to this and sharing his vulnerability would destabilise him He needs to use all his strength and control to try to keep Thomasthe man that holds his heart and life in his hands.
As a reader, we have an insight to both characters POV, giving us a window in which to gaze at their inner most thoughts, fears and delights, with neither of them aware of the complexities, deep emotion and the darkness buried deep within, that they are trying to keep hidden from each other They cannot however, hide the emotional connection and the sexual tension that jumps off the pages and into your heart They are lost souls needing each other, fitting together perfectly, their souls so intertwined that without each other they will never be whole There is such a tenderness and beauty between them that it often brought me to tears, ripped me up and tore me apart.
my own heart breaking seeing the overwhelming love and devotion they have for each other.
This book is not all intense and dramatic, the Master Slave relationship is in the bedroom, out of it there is a lot of humour between the two MC and the amazing cast of secondary characters Kathy and Walter Briggs, I want them as my GrandparentsI just fell in love with them and Julie well, she has a wicked sense of humour and I want her as my new bestie.
Authors Note.
Yes, I had to read it right to the very end Joey W Hill in her Authors Note, describers her writing as giving the reader a moment of magic through written words Ms Hill, truer words have never been said.
Thank you for my moment of magic, it was truly AMAZING.
FLAGGED FOR A WORK OF ART SOME RIGHT DICKHEADS OUT THEREWell this was going to be a 2 or 3 star read for me when I was about 40% in Then it all sort of changed and I fell in love with the whole story I did already love the characters a little bit but the writing becamepoetic, the scenes becamespecial, the characters becamereal.
The writing was truly beautiful Wheat colored grass, flowing, rippling like a lover s muscles Green flowing into the gold like interlocking fingers Every part different, but all part of the whole Birds spiraling and speaking in musical tongues, warbling, chirping, trebling the piercing shriek of a hawk The occasional rasping calls of the crows, or the surprise of an owl s hoot as the sun rose, giving warmth, a dying god s gift, the promise of renewal as it moved inexorably toward the autumn cycle I just don t get the whole pleasure from pain thing so when that was going on I just wanted to leave it and read another book But the five star reviews are all over the place so I knew there was something .
I highlighted a lot of the second half of the book but am not going to leave quote after quote here, much as I would like to.
Families are funny really You have a sort of love hate relationship with them I am a Catholic and I sort of thought the Bible tells us to be tolerant, to accept people for what they are Gay, Straight, Rich, Poor, we are all the same in God s eyes Thomas mother is Catholic but I suppose she would be of the old school where Gay people were seen as evil Actually she was a right fucking bitch for most of the book I seriously would like to think if either of my sons came home and told me they were Gay that I would hug them and tell them that I had no problem with that SOMETIMES WHEN YOU LOSE EVERYTHING, THE LAST THING YOU WANT TO DO IS REMEMBER AND TELLING IS REMEMBERING Then we have the whole rural urban setting I am from a small village in the West of Ireland Himself is from a city He cannot understand how I could stand to grow up in a place like that Now I can understand his logic I could not live there at this stage of my life But when I was younger, I knew no different It was home, it was family, it was friendship, it was my soul.
This is one book that I could just go on and on and on and on about but I won t Thanks to Irene and the gang for encouraging making me read it It truly was a beautiful love story Of course I would love an epilogue a few years down the road, just to see where they all are I even wanted to see if Rory got his head out of his fucking ass and redeemed himself Silly boy He only knew at one time he d been able to translate all athe raw emotion of life to a canvas Despite how close that emotion cut to his own life, his soul had somehow found a safe haven from which to observe without becoming a paralyzed part of it He had a bashful tendency to look away when he smiled, but the smile was sexy, black Irish Yeah, yeah, have to get an Irish bit in there YIN HAD TO HAVE A YANG